sometimes we need to take a step back from the dilluted reality. sometimes we need to find the light that can offer an alternative to the dark. and sometimes, we get more than we imagined.

one day. one hour. one year. our worlds spin around frames of time. measuring the steps from moment to moment. god, has it really only been two months. ive spent 24 years trying to built what i have in two months. thats it. not a decade, not an year. two months.

work. the business finally has sprouted wings. ive poked at this flopping lifeless fish for two months now. poke poke. my image is no longer just a faceless box. she is growing and emerging into a full blown financial acheivement. breasts and all.

him. he was waiting for me to be ready. nothing, nothing, can explain this. this is what life is about. he is what living should feel like. im ready.

i forgot what it felt like to be okay. i forgot how it felt to stand on two feet. i forgot how bad it stings to miss friends, and let them down. i forgot how to be the mother that i am. i forgot about me.

this time, this year, things will be different. its time.